30, 51+, where have all the flowers gone?

I hesitate - well, a bit, anyway - to bring this up again, but a WOW widow is not a good look on me. As my daughter reads this blog on occasion, and for various other reasons, this is probably not the wisest course of action - but you should be happy to know that, after 30 years, some things are still vital - a woman has needs!! Okay, that's all I'm sayin' 'bout that!